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Have memories that are coming through strongly but that are uncomfortable to my sense of self to confront and look at so have been distracting myself from them all day.  Which is getting ridiculous now, as when I haven't been checking the same three forums over and over again or writing up posts I've been sleeping.  For a short few hours I went out to the radio station for a meet.  But now I'm home again and trying to distract myself.

I'm not sure what they are... something having to do with a temple... with a marble slab inside the temple... a dead body... and four men....  I don't know it's really bothering me and I don't want to look at it but it keeps being very strong in my head like someone standing behind me all day "HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.  HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY  YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU.  HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY   LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOK AT MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE."
O_O  LOL.....   accurate, that is.  *annoyed*
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New Blog up on Warrior Witch (my website for readings):

I felt all this... urging to tune in to some spirits and let them talk about Japan and the Middle East and whatnot... not expecting what came out but .... was kind of interested.

Celia Fenn has posted about how some "emergency angel teams" (...) have been sent in to help with everything going on, and are enlisting very spiritual people to help ground huge discharges of energy.  I don't know about everything else, but I can account for "enlisted to ground energy surges" thing.... that happened to me Friday morning...

I was minding my own business, sewing some stuff for class (... why do we have to sew ;_; ...) and suddenly it was just like tons of energy flowing through me... didn't know what to do with it but felt like I should ground it.  Then I felt like my mind/consciousness had been taken to off the shore of Japan, and I saw this HUGE spiritual Earth-spirit like being rise out of the crust there O_O!!  

It was kind of like earlier this year and sensed the HUGE Earth spirit (looked different though) rising up out of the Midwest o_o....

So the jist of the channel i got was that the spirits were basically like "Hey, we're doing a lot of work over here, moving things around so that all of us can ascend, and knocking some things down and that's making gnarly things happen up there.  Our bad.  Sorry :( "

On I've recently been trying to address the combative fighting atmosphere...  made a couple of posts yesterday and saw some replies both for and against what I'd said... about to go jump into the fray, see what's happened since I've been in bed...  o_o

Trying to figure out how to lead a group ritual here in Hilo to get in contact with the spirits the same way that I can...  Any suggestions on ritual things to do? 
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It seems that I have somehow caught the flu... AGAIN.  Because once round clearly isn't enough for one cold/flu season.

I wasn't really sure what was going on at first...  it felt like all of my muscles were really sore but I didn't feel fatigued or coughy...  just really painful.

I guess I was also sneezing a lot... thought maybe there was something in the air that I was allergic to, or maybe an especially powerful lot of "vog" in the air...  I cleaned my window screens at the time of the excessive sneezing and they were completely black.  O_O.  Vog is the smoke from Kilauea...  we don't have "smog" here, not really... the air is mostly clean except for when fumes and smoke from Kilauea start drifting over here.  Most people that have lived here a while will feel really crappy on voggy days.  Headaches.  I did (and do) have a headache.  

Then, yesterday for no reason that I could tell my upper lip started swelling up...  so got some Benadryl and it went down... but still wtf??


Feb. 27th, 2011 09:24 am
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Hallo DW, I'm not sure what I'll be posting here.

I suppose that I'll try to express myself magically or creatively as often as possible. I used to use my lj for talking about myself and analyzing my actions, but that got old... and also, it got so popular at lj that it felt I was baring my heart open to more and more people.

I suppose that here, I would prefer to write things that I would want to share with the world anyway. Increasingly those things tend to pertain to magick and otherkin and the state of the world. I suppose I will post lots of things about the state of the world, too.

So, Aloha DW, and here's a poem that I wrote last summer:


Raw, the world, bleeding, chiming unfinished
glass breaking into sensical spheres of wonderment, unafraid to be real and jarring
birds whirling through too bright air on a too bright day unconfused by their sudden clarity into the eyes of this wanderer.
Escaping escaping into a world of melody they bring me back kicking and
screaming into this raw place of feeling and sensation laid bare without cover or hiding no refuge no
escaping here because it's all real and other the melody the dull color is all fake and real is raw and too
much to handle but so so so necessary it bleeds me dry and fills me with ambrosia mead honey sweet liquors running through my veins mercilessly unplugging holes stopped up since
millennia untold stories
(you'll never hear them from these lips or this tongue)
running into myself blindly stop hitting yourself and I can't
searing pain truth into my mind hurting what's already there leaving me
no refuge
escaping escaping my amusements my melody is quiet
Where did it go to who silenced it without my permission
in my mind speaking treacheries against the one most high
(most high?)
“remove the veil”
“You are...”
it's too soon
not soon enough
faster faster raw rippling wind tearing into
every part
every sensation
who is


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